Sometimes writing feels exactly like that, though once I get started it tends to get easier. Not necessarily better or more entertaining to read, but easier to write.
For the past 68 days I've set aside time every morning for meditation and prayer. It's become such a welcome habit that I've created a meditation space in my studio, and on some days have added an evening zazen.
So, has there been an observable effect on my daily life as a result of this practice? Yes, but I can't qualify it. If pressed "I'm more aware of how little I know, and that awareness bothers me less & less every day" would be the most accurate statement I can make.
There have been no tectonic epiphanies, my days haven't become filled with mystical synchronicity, I've not become a serene pillar of wisdom. Thank God.
There is now a nifty and simple altar in my new meditation space, holding a few meaningful objects I've scrounged from around the house. An image of Christ, a votive candle, an incense holder. Nearby are my singing bowl, tingsha chimes and a box of matches.
The biggest challenge while establishing this regular practice has been unexpected noises around the house, most notably when my husband suddenly decides to get up two hours before his usual rising time and either directly interrupts me or turns the television on. With the volume up around 60.
So what do I do when those things happen? I respond briefly with a monumental effort at a calm "I'm meditating," or a "would you mind turning the television down (or off) until I'm done meditating?" What's the point in getting bent out of shape? Wouldn't that defeat the whole purpose of meditating?
Just what is my purpose in establishing & maintaining this practice? Ultimately, union with God. But in the meantime, I'll consider it to be simply enjoying God's first language - silence.
If anyone reads this post and is interested in learning more about how I meditate, or about meditation in general, please let me know in the comments.
"Yeshua said, 'And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.' "
Om Sri Yeshua Bhagavate Namaha! (I bow to you Lord Jesus, the Supreme Consciousness).